Finding Myself

Hello! :)

I'm supposed to be writing a 4-page paper on Henry IV for my Brit Lit class right now.. ask me how that's going! haha

Anyways, I was reflecting on my thoughts the past few days, and I wanted to share what I've realized/learned:

I'm not your typical girl, and I'm completely okay with that. I love sports (baseball and football most), my favorite meal consists of having medium-rare steak on my plate, I enjoy video games, and I love being outside. However, I love getting my hair, makeup, and nails done, and shopping with my mom and girlfriends as well. So anyways, I love who I am, and I love what i'm learning about myself! I think being balanced is great, makes me versatile when hanging out with guy friend or girl friends! lol

Here's what else I've learned (the important stuff!)

I'm not perfect, actually i'm about the farthest thing from it. i'm selfish, impatient, emotional, self-concious and easily hurt. I take things way too personally. I procrastinate all the time(example, now.) I'm loud..too loud most of the time. I'm laid back (good/bad thing) I'm lazy, I hate working out unless i'm doing something active like playing a sport, I drink too much soda, I get scared easily, and I forget where I put things all the time. I'm clumsy and accident prone, and I care way too much about what people think of me.

At church on Sunday, Pastor Chad's sermon was about how God looks at the heart. "For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the Heart" -1 Samuel 16:7 And through that sermon, I found myself doing a run through of my characteristics.. not focusing on the bad ones, that's exciting! I finally figured out the only person I have to please is God. and the only way to please Him is to live a life honoring and glorifying His name! "The King is enthralled by your beauty, honor Him, for he is your Lord!" -Psalm 45:11
I get so overwhelmed when I realize how beautiful some of my characteristics are and let go of the ones that aren't! It's encouraging.

Lately I've noticed a change in myself. The kind of change you only see when someone lets go of worldly views and clings to Christ's. I'm way happier all the time, way more fun to be around, and encouraging. I've been completely reassured that my passion is being with children, and that my choice to be an education major is completely where I'm supposed to be. My favorite thing to do is make someone smile, even if I can't make myself smile. I have noticed the little things that slip my everyday mind, such as how blessed I am to have parents who love me continually, and love eachother more than the day they were married! I'm so blessed to have a big brother, who loves me, even though it doesn't feel like it when he's picking on me, and I'm so blessed to have the friends that I have and am continuing to make. Brittney, Jill, Sarah, Brooke, and Amanda- you girls are my best friends and I can't thank you enough for shining your lights to me when I was hurting. I am so blessed to have you girls and I wouldn't trade it for the world!

I've found my goal in life, and that is to live out 1 Timothy 4:12. The only compliments I take to heart are the ones from people whom i've encouraged. When my campers told me I was the best counselor ever, I felt so fulfilled. When moms from the church tell me that I'm wonderful and that they hope their kids can grow up to be like me, I'm overjoyed. I've noticed I like compliments on my character way more than compliments on my appearance, and that's okay with me :)

So, the point of it all is that I'm finding myself. I'm finding my joy, and finding exactly who I want to be. I'm becoming way more of a "I'll try almost anything once" kind of person, and I love that! I've become kind of addicted to the feeling of stepping out of my comfort zone, and going for things I would never have before. I'm loving this process of finding myself.

Anyways, I have to get my paper done so I can go to Denton and spend the night at the Casey Donahew concert with my brother, and close friends for Lindsey's birthday! :)

looove.